Last year I made the decision to move from my beloved town to a different town where I didnt know anyone except a married distant cousin who was so focused in life its not that easy to influence him to do the “wrong” things………
With me moving I was more focused on my career and to stop this thing of chopping and changing jobs as if it were underwear and learn to focus on my chosen field of study
Look I got that and decided to study a few courses here and there since I was becoming miss focused
I accomplished one course and am currently busy with my other course
These are short courses by the way because my attention span suck……..so no more than 4 months
With that being said I have accomplished that part of my “life” or still in the process but other aspects of my life have gone down the drain
For instance I used to love sport, both playing and watching it on tv
Now I dont watch tv AT ALL and I have a gym membership but am never there
I thought picking the gym with alot of people and playing the most awesome music would make me go to gym atleast once a week……..#bigfail
Instead it has made me shy and constantly question my dress sense…….I mean I am going to gym who cares what the f$&@ I am wearing???????
The stares I get for wearing my big tees and the most shinny tights and the most rugged takkies makes me want to use the equipment that nobody uses and doesnt do justice for my body needs……….
I regret picking that gym but hey I have got to stick it out and continue to remind myself why I am going to gym…….what was the reason again?????
Bottom line I miss my sporting days, playing tennis with my dad. Playing action netball with my former school coach…….#sighhhhh
I guess this is part of growing up
Change and discipline are what I still need to adapt to………
Nonetheless there is no turning back now from trying to be “good”